sooooo i guess i gave that guy from the other night my number, which i vaguely remember now because i just chekced my voicemail and he left me a voicemail right after he dropped me off saying he wanted to talk to me again.  oh man i am laughing so hard right now at my misfortune in life and love why can’t i like nice guys? He was cute and a perfect gentleman but nooooo he isn’t an asshole so im not interested. I mean he called RIGHT AFTER he dropped me off what the hell you’re supposed to wait like a week or 2 for me to be interested

It’s not quite sleep paralysis because I’m kind of in a half dream/half awake stage.  Constant vibrating and it’s so uncomfortable, once it starts it gets intense really fast and I have to “wake” myself up and the only way to do that is to like jerk my head up.

That past couple of nights have been pretty bad, as it’s constant. doze off, vibrations, wake up. Doze off, vibrations, wake up. over and over and over for hours until finally I either just get up or actually fall asleep.

Tonight is a get up night because I’m creeped out by my half asleep dreams that I keep having. They are very vivid, and seem so real, like a lucid dream. At one point someone was whispering in my ear and it felt so real that I got actual goosebumps. In each one something happens with my stomach (someone bit it, then pushed on it, grabs it) and I “wake up” feeling like I’m going to throw up and my entire body feels like it’s vibrating even though it isn’t.

Ugh, looks like i’m just going to watch TV for a while and hope I can “accidentally” fall asleep during some boring movie.